Afternoon #WarHamFam and #WarhammerCommunity I'm in a somewhat reflective mood and that usually prompts the 'where's my head @?' post rather than 'what's on my palette?'. What is funny is
I go back to the last 'where's my head @?' and I discover it was almost exactly 12 months ago that I wrote it. More interesting is that I had a similar sense of
ennui at the end of the last hobby season. I already had things I wanted to say here but before that I'm just going to reread what I wrote in 2023...
Some time later
OK, so there is some help from that refresh of how I felt, but let's set the scene now: I finished my Adeptus Titanicus models and I thought let's get into the Leviathan Tyranids. I know my Tyranids, the scheme and that's comfortable and familiar - wrong! It was tedious and demotivating. Ironically the opposite of what happened last year where I thought I could go back to my Terminators and instead leaned into the bugs. I mean I'm persevering with them but it's not much fun.
Additionally, I'm thinking about Armies On Parade, insomuch as I never had a plan for this year, aside from my Leviathan bugs and that's not happening. So I thought about my Knights... except I just ordered the Cerastus Acheron and Castigator and it sure would be nice to have them on the board too. And I was thinking my original DreadTober plan of my Norn Emissary + 2 GSC Sentinels could instead be 2 Cerastus Knights. Except AoP is October so those timelines don't align - which has further skewered my plans and motivation.
On top of that I have been writing my review of the Season. Although I was 'satisfied' for my progress when the Deathwing were done and my [stretch goal] guarantee of satisfaction was the Titans. Well I achieved that - so I was supposed to be free and clear. But the recent lack of mojo and seeing fewer finished models somehow undid that sense of achievement. Thankfully looking at that post from last year has helped. It's pointed out just how much of a challenge those Terminators were, which I ultimately overcame. And, let's remind ourselves of my own pearl of wisdom:
However, as my Hobby Season comes to an end I am fortunate to see that this season has been a bumper one, so if next season is a little more fallow I can live with it.
So, I gave myself permission last year to do less, so I should not be feeling bad about that. And although that is true, the things I've done have been hard work, challenging and significant stumbling blocks in how long they've been on my list. Not to mention models I did not look forward to painting again [Titans] but overcame that reluctance; not just for this effort but possibly any future Titans. In which case, I have a lot to be proud of.
It's only through writing a reflective post like this, and accidentally discovering the last post covered similar issues that I can move on with positivity. I may not have solved my AoP situation and my bugs are still tedious - I have some WiP posts to explain why, but at least my head is @ a better place now, than when I first thought about writing this post.
